Tuesday
Sep172002

today we come full circle. today we come back to the source. today denison witmer plays the double door!



denison @ schubas 3.8.2002 alright, let me explain. the first concert i went to where i took photos was deni's show in rockford on 3.7.2002 and then the next day at schubas. that's when i got hooked on going to concerts and taking photos. if it weren't for denison, i wouldn't have gone to 3/4 of the concerts i went to, and that bill mallonee concert ended up being pretty life-changing, ya know? it's weird...if it weren't for deni, i wouldn't have gone to bill's concert, which means i wouldn't have met tim, which means i never would've met megan, which means megan would've never met denison, and those two wouldn't be such buds! i find it quite amusing that denison has himself to thank that he's friends w/ megan now. i'm just the middle gal.



not only that, if i hadn't gone to that bill mallonee concert, caleb would've never emailed me. i'd probably still be roaming around looking in all the wrong places for answers to life's big questions. and i never would have gone to cornerstone, which means i never would've become friends w/ ryan or jesse or mikey or bill & VoL...



also, the ONLY reason i started this website was because i knew that i'd be taking photos at denison's concert, and i'd need a place to put them. if you look at my index page, you will note that i decided to start the website on march 5th, 2 days before denison's rockford show. and i found out about blogging through denison, so this whole online journal thing is from him too. my first blog was the day of denison's schuba show.



not only that, during the last week of my dad's life, denison & i emailed each other while i was by my dad's side late into the night in the hospital. somehow, as i would read his emails or write him emails, i felt like he was in that hospital room with me. he was the one to whom i entrusted the emotions and thoughts going through me as i watched my dad slip away.



so that's what i mean by coming full circle. i'm so excited denison's coming to town!!! megan's driving in just for the show so we can all hang out. i can't wait to get my hands on the live recordings cd and the cd version of philadephia songs. i've been listening to the cassette i recorded off the lp, and i can't play that in my car.



full circle, here i come...

Saturday
Sep142002

note: two more new concert photo pages: guided by voices and clem snide. yeah, i know they're like from a zillion years ago, but better late than never. the guided by voices concert was probably one of my all-time fave shows, photowise and show-wise. bob pollard is an absolute nut and i love him for it. gbv are doing a show next saturday @ the hideout block party. that should be a nice intimate show.



birthday candles so yesterday i got together with my girls kris (my cousin), connie & rea. it was connie's birthday this time, and we went out to this nice restaurant on division & paulina called...umm...i don't remember what it's called. but they had fish there. i took a break from being a vegetarian, as i am sometimes asked to do by the girls for special occassions, and had me some salmon. and tuna. and halibut. and whitefish. it was all quite fancy, yeah. pretty yummy too. the only time i eat good food is when i'm with these girls. i would literally have no idea what the good restaurants were if it weren't for these gals, and the only time i even go to these places is w/ them. so i don't really have to worry about it. but it was a nice treat to have a cloth napkin and a yummy coctail w/ my dinner.



the foursome--rea, kris, connie & sarah i told the girls i'm moving to seattle and that they should all come with me. my cousin & i had talked of moving there for years now, so i guess i'm just gonna do it and maybe she'll follow. who knows. i'd hate to be away from my gals, even though i'm probably the misfit of the bunch. i mean, they were so shocked that i was actually carrying a bona fide purse last night. they know their wines--i know i like sierra nevada, honkers ale, rolling rock and melon balls. we all share a love for trying new things...it's just that a lot of the times the new things i'd choose are different from what they'd choose. we all love to travel, and i'd say none of us likes the real touristy stuff. actually, my cousin kris and i travel very well together. at least i think so. i probably drive her crazy cuz i'm a ditz when i travel. anyways, i guess one of the reasons i like these gals so much is the very fact that they're so different from me, and yet we have such a good time when we're together. we've got the important stuff in common--we love a good mixed drink with good company having good conversation.



rea's awesome alcoholic concoction after dinner, we went to rea's apartment which was just down the block for cake. it was a perfect night out--not hot, not at all humid, not too breezy--so we sat on rea's back porch, which is huge for a wicker park apartment, and we chilled out w/ coctails that rea whipped up for us. we talked, we got tipsy, we played w/ the sparkly candles, we took pictures of each other, etc etc etc. we were going to go do some karaoke since it was connie's bday and she loves to karaoke but once rea got the comforter out, there was no way kris & connie were gonna move for the rest of the evening. that's okay. it was low key relaxation.



a rare photo taken by someone else--this one taken by rea i have to say that i'm kind of baffled why i don't see these girls more often. i guess since i stopped going to their church 10 months ago...and i suppose a lot of my weekends have involved concerts, often in places other than chicago. and i suppose i've kept to myself more since my dad died. hmm...i need to make ways to see more of them in the future. maybe less concerts or something.



recent listenings--

something about airplanes--death cab for cutie

s/t--jimmy eat world

safe away--denison witmer

dear life--the trouble with sweeney

rock and roll singer--mark kozelek (i love mark kozelek...)

songs for a blue guitar--red house painters

wood/water--the promise ring

universal truths and cycles--guided by voices

wilco compilation

VoL compilation

zapruder point compilation

s/t--serene

s/t--holiday runner

hootenanny--the replacements

misc mp3s including: good morning providence & cinema air (TGR); shiver & yellow (coldplay); quiet crown & idea track (idlewild); happiness is all the rage, watertown plank, skips a beat (the promise ring); fly & road (nick drake); many many more...too tired to type...

Thursday
Sep122002

news: poor old lu photos are up. boring arrangement but there they are. yeah, click here.

ok. so here's the seattle story. before i forget i gotta get all this down. and my internal hard drive has gotten so that as soon as i add new data, i lose old data to make room for the new, so if i don't write stuff down, it's gone. so this is really for my benefit, so i don't forget what happened on the trip.



just a little background on me and seattle...this was my fourth trip to seattle. my first time there was back when i was like a sophomore in college (yeah, back in the stone age...) it was during fall when the leaves were changing, and all i remember from that trip is the sight of trees covered in beautiful orange and gold leaves on the UW campus against the backdrop of massively gorgeous buildings on the campus. i so wanted to transfer there, but it was too far away. i mean, i couldn't even go to U of I Urbana; like how could i expect to go to UW? then the 2nd time i visited seattle was with my cousin kris back in october of 2000. we'd taken a red eye, and when i stepped foot outside our airport hotel our first morning there, i was overwhelmed w/ this feeling of being at home. i can't really explain it, but i think it was the topography and landscape that reminded me of the motherland, back in seoul, korea. it was that trip that planted in me a deeprooted love for seattle. so i knew going into this seattle trip w/ megan that i was going to just love every mintute of it and that i wouldn't want to come back to chicago...so yeah, here we go.



a little bit of the wall @ atlantic street pizza on u-ave thursday night, megan and i are waiting for the boys from serene--ryan, jesse, matt & erik--to meet us after their gig down @ tomfest. we had wanted to see them play, but our flight just didn't get in on time. we planned on meeting them at the knarr tavern in the university district, and megan & i were starving so we stopped in at atlantic street pizza to grab a bite. it was quite an experience. that place is a hole in the wall, but every inch of it was covered in autographed photos of rock & roll stars. it was a great way to start the trip. and the pizza was awesome too.



ryan's two day mohawk so we meet the boys probably around 9pmish, and i walk into the knarr and what do i see? ryan has a mohawk. i thought it was hilarious. apparently, he'd let someone at tomfest shave his head. it was such a fuzzy little mohawk--quite cute actually. i'm glad i got photos of it cuz he shaved it off the next morning. so we hung out a bit at the knarr which is a cool bar with like shuffleboard and everything. the gang @ linda's on capitol hill then we headed over to a bar that erik likes called linda's up on capitol hill. it was a happening place. it was fun just hanging out, getting to know matt & erik whom we'd met for the first time. matt was actually flying back to new york the next morning. it was so good to see ryan and jesse again...



nappy roots at bumbershoot friday, ryan & jesse had to go back to tomfest cuz jesse had to play w/ morella's forest. i had planned on going w/ to just hang w/ ryan, but we got a call from rosie thomas at the last minute and she and eric fisher wanted to see megan before they left for the u.k. saturday morning. i decided to stay w/ megan instead of going to tomfest, although i really wanted to spend time w/ ryan and jesse. it all worked out. we had a great time @ bumbershoot w/ erik. saw the nappy roots who were awesome. then we met up w/ rosie & eric and a bunch of their friends at sunset bowl, which is a 24 hour bowling alley & karaoke bar. erik loves to karaoke. i do too but don't tell anyone. oh. erik introduced us to dick's french fries. they were awesome! yeah, the whole day we ate french fries for lunch and french fries for dinner.



me, ryan and megan w/ jesse in the background saturday, megan and i drove down to tomfest in stevenson, wa. we had to drive through portland, OR to do that which was cool. tomfest is kinda like a more conservative cubed root of cornerstone. lot smaller. and this year it was mostly hardcore punk. we mainly hung at the poor old lu merch table w/ ryan and jesse (once we found them) and then we went to dinner at this little diner that was totally empty. this was like the first real meal megan and i'd had since we got to the state of washington. so far, we'd eaten pizza on thursday, french fries on friday (actually, i had some pad thai from a vendor at bumbershoot), pizza for lunch saturday again. obviously, this trip was not going to be remembered for the food.



poor old lu all bright and yellow we got to see poor old lu play saturday night, which was one of my goals for doing this trip in the first place. it was so awesome to see jesse drumming close up. he is like an amazing amazing drummer. i could literally just watch him drum for a whole show. i love good drummers. they're so fun to watch. there was a good crowd for the show, and i got to take pictures which you can see here.



sarah, jesse and megan we drove back that night and arrived in seattle sunday morning around 5am. on sunday, megan, jesse & i went to hang out in the u-district, jesse's old hood. we ate middle eastern for lunch then hit the cd stores. i found this sloan cd i'd been looking for (smeared) so i was pretty psyched. i also saw a copy of idlewild's 100 broken windows for only 5.99 which in retrospect i wish i'd picked up cuz that's like really cheap and that's a damn good cd. i could've given it away. we went to bumbershoot and tried to get into damien jurado, which was totally packed out. i was bummed. i did get to talk to andy myers, the drummer after the show. we'd met the night before at the bowling thing w/ rosie & eric (eric plays guitar in damien's band).



ryan @ pike place pub & brewery jesse had to go to a dinner thing, so megan & i met ryan @ pike place pub & brewery where we ate good food for the first time and shot pool. erik & his friend james met us later and we all went to bumbershoot for the death cab for cutie concert. there were like a million people there. i almost got in through the vip entrance, but i had too many friends w/ me. death cab for cutie in front of a mega audience not that i care, i'd much rather be with friends than get in through some shortcut of an entrance. the concert was cool. i love those kids. they're so cute. and they literally were cute like little bugs on that stage. it was awesome to see them all excited over the huge crowd. and they did my seattle song (blacking out the friction..."i don't mind the weather...").



so after the death cab for cutie concert, ryan, megan and i went to drop off mofo's gear at some dude named paul's house. it was this really cool little house in the middle of this industrial district w/ like these semis on the property and it overlooked a reservoir. you could have conducted shooting practice w/ bottles or tin cans and no one would've noticed. i got to meet the morella's forest folks. shawn johnson who does i don't know what for mofos was in a um good and talkative mood (maybe he's always like that) and we all got into this heated discussion about stuff. yeah. uh huh. ok. we were there till like 4 in the morning and then me and ryan continued our discussion until past 7am once we got home.



jeff tweedy of wilcomeg & i were supposed to meet ian moore for the wilco concert @ bumbershoot around noonish, and we got a late start cuz i had hardly slept. we made it though and it was so awesome to see ian again, and to share a wilco concert with him was an added bonus. ian and i are both crazy about wilco, so it was special to see the show w/ someone who loves them as much as me. kinda like seeing the wilco movie w/ caleb, ya know. and since caleb couldn't be there with me, it was great having ian there. it was a great show! it was my first time seeing them live and i was so excited. i wish they'd played longer, but oh well. we didn't get to spend too much time w/ ian, but i was so glad we had a chance to see him while we were in seattle. i'll have to go back to see him sometime to meet his family and all.



glenn and john of wilco ok. after we said goodbye to ian, what did we do...man, this is why i need to write this stuff down...oh! we were starving so we went back to this bar/restaurant at the seattle center where bumbershoot was going on and had a lovely lovely lunch. i don't remember what i ate but it was frickin dee-lish. but what was really awesome was this concoction they had called italian punch. it had like amaretto, sloe gin, melon liquer, a few other liquers, and like some fruit juices. that stuff is dangerous. you can't even taste the alcohol. it started raining while we were there so we just hung out by the bar for like a really long time. i was actually happy for the rain. you can't do seattle without rain. when the rain slowed to a drizzle, megan and i went out to our car and went to pick up ryan. then we went over to jesse's to pick him up.



ryan and sarah on the ceiling of flowers bar and lounge we went to this pizza place that ryan swears is the best pizza on earth called ummm pagliacci's or something. i have to admit it was pretty damn good pizza. but i'm from chicago, ya know...we have high standards for pizza. after pizza (can you believe megan & i went to seattle and 3 of our meals were PIZZA? and we're FROM CHICAGO??), we walked over to this bar called flowers, which was right next door to the middle eastern restaurant jesse had taken us to the day before. it was a cool bar. really low key. megan and sarah--the wildwood galsand the ceiling had mirrors! i was having fun just taking pictures. and the men's bathroom was the most incredible blue i'd ever seen. the four of us sat at the bar and just talked. the bartender (i think his name was john) was really cool. he made this awesome vodka lemonade that was to die for. if you're ever in seattle, stop by flowers and get the vodka lemonade. i don't know where it is except that it's in the university district. jesse and megan it was cool to just chill out and talk without any distractions. there's something about just sitting at a bar with people you enjoy being with and having a conversation. and it wasn't one of them trendy noisy bars where you're like pressed up against bodies getting hoarse trying to talk over the thump thump thump of the music. the music was subdued, and we could actually talk in normal voices, even lower than normal voices and still be heard. that's my type of a bar.



ryan, jesse and megan walking in red square jesse decided we should go to a place called i think red square on the uw campus, so we walked there. the evening was a bit wet and chilly, but it was lovely for walking with friends. when we got to red square, it was so beautiful. it's basically this open space with a couple sculptures and surrounded by campus buildings, including the library. megan and i were blown away at how beautiful it was. we goofed around a bit. ryan jumping through the airryan did some tricks for us, like jumping over me. yeah, thanks, remind me how short i am. that black blur is ryan jumping through the air in front of the library. he jumps well.



there was something magical about the evening...i think it was the lingering effects of the rain. the puddles, and the reflections of the light in the puddles...i love that stuff. i thought about leaving the next morning, and i didn't want the night to end. i felt so at home in seattle...megan and i were very reluctant to go back home the next morning. without a doubt, seattle had secured itself a place in our hearts. i'm already thinking of going back...and how i can move out there......

Wednesday
Sep112002

today is 9/11--three little numerals combined together to signify a loss of innocence for an entire nation and beyond.



sculpture in uw's red square in seattle i spent today in bed pretty much w/ a migraine, but i did spend some time reflecting on the past year, the most tumultuous year in the history of my existence so far. i think back on the loss i suffered but i realize that there's so much that i've gained. i lost my dad, my marriage, and my faith in an institutionalized christianity. but i did gain an assurance of seeing my dad again and the assurance that he loves me still, and i've gained a contentment and happiness on my own that i never knew i could have, and i've gained a faith in a God who chose to shower me with love and mercy when i doubted his existence and questioned his goodness.



i thought today of all the people in my life who have shown me love and whom i love as well. i am grateful for these people, many who live far away from me. it blows my mind when i think of them all.



it's also been a great year of rock and roll, so i guess i'll close with my recent playlist, which i haven't disclosed in a while--



s/t--serene (my goal in life right now is to see these guys in concert)

s/t--holiday runner

roobrik--the world inside

from dayton with love--morella's forest

ian's moore's got the green grass--ian moore

via satellite--ian moore

personal vol comp--vigilantes of love

personal uncle tupelo/son volt/wilco comp--aforementioned

kids in philly--marah

thirteen--teenage fanclub

smeared--sloan

parachutes--coldplay

amnesiac--radiohead

bringing it all back home--bob dylan

the photo album--death cab for cutie

in aeroplanes over the sea--neutral milk hotel

the better button--mink lungs

100 broken windows--idlewild

wreck your life--old 97's

zapruder point comp--zp

Sunday
Sep082002

wow. where did august go? i'm really trippin' that it's almost not summer any more.



there's so much to write about that i feel like i'm gonna just be backlogged for the rest of my life, but it's important to get this stuff down cuz my longterm memory sucks and i'll never remember that evening in red square w/ ryan & megan & jesse or the wilco concert w/ ian or when michael introduced me to thax douglas for the first time or karaokeing w/ erik or almost bowling w/ damien jurado or meeting andy myers or making a fool of myself in front of nick & his wife and uh the rest of the bumbershoot crowd or seeing death cab do my seattle song in seattle w/ my seattle friends etc etc etc. ok. at least i got a synopsis down.



that's all i can do for now...



BUT some important news. DENISON WITMER is touring with THE TROUBLE WITH SWEENEY. i love both these guys. they're playing the double door on tuesday 9/17 prob. 9pm but who knows. cheap show. prob. $8 or something. denison is my comfort music when i'm feeling blue and he's touched my life on a lot of levels, especially when my dad was dying, so he's in a sense always on my mind. go to burntoastvinyl's site for tour dates as denison's not updated his website in a while. computer woes and super super busy. yeah, click here for tour dates.