Sunday
Mar172002

happy st. patrick's day!!!!

just got back from trish & joe's party. ed was there!! it was good to see him again after 4 months. and he seems so happy with his girlfriend. i'm glad for him.

melon ball i brought the ingredients for what josh & i think should be the official st. paddy's day drink, our standard the melon ball, because it's so perfectly green. josh mixed the drinks--he's gotten very good at it since he finished that entire bottle of midori & vodka i got him in january. everybody liked it except becca who said it tasted like medicine. i don't know what brand cough syrup she's been taking, but i'd like some too because it must be extremely yummy. we took to calling it medicine ball by the end of the evening.

i am going to exercise selfrestraint and go to bed instead of uploading all my pictures from the party.

p.s. i saw the moon tonight! she was just a tiny sliver, like an eyeless smiling face. i felt much better and was SO happy to greet the moon tonite!

Saturday
Mar162002

i have made progress on my move...i have acquired BOXES!!! now i guess i have no excuse but to start packing. except that i have trish's st.paddy's day party in a couple hours and i need to shower and all that jazz...



the ever elusive mr. ed peters will be making an appearance tonight i am told accompanied by his excuse for not being online for me these past 2 months. well, i'm glad one of us has a life...

Saturday
Mar162002

3 movie tickets--$0.00 (courtesy of gene); hot chocolate, 1 small coffee, 2 large coffees, bagel & 2 cookies at the dunkin donuts--<$15.00 (but free for me courtesy of connolly); warm fuzzy feelings derived not from the coffee but from heart to heart conversation with 2 good friends at 2 in the morning--priceless...



something there is about the wee hours of the night that puts me in a tender, sentimental mood. as i sat across from connolly and olarn at the dunkin donuts i couldn't help feeling a gentle flow of affection for both of them. i know that i have a place with them where i belong, where i'm safe. as we talked tonight about the intricate nature of navigating through relationships and the fears and insecurities we face, i felt at peace and at rest knowing that i had company on what to me has been one hell of a treacherous journey.



and i thought about josh moving out of state, and how much i'm going to miss him. and i thought about how much i respect him for choosing to love and seeing it through in his life, because i didn't have the strength to make that same choice in my own life. there is something to be said for being and staying friends with those who can remember you from when you were still a child, even if you lose touch with them for long stretches of time. i didn't realize the significance of such friendships when i was younger, but now i know. these are the friends who can breathe life to your faded watercolor memories of way back when, or who, with a single word or tiny cue, will help you recover that misplaced memory from that mess of a filing system in your brain.



"if you lose your faith, babe, you can have mine, and if you're lost i'm right behind, cause we walk the same line. now i don't have to tell you how slow the night can go, i know you've watched the light and i bet you could tell me how slowly four follows three, and you're most forlorn just before dawn. so if you lose your faith, babe, you can have mine, and if you're lost i'm right behind, cause we walk the same line. and i don't need reminding how loud the phone can ring when you're waiting for news and that big old moon lights every corner of the room. your back aches from lying and your head aches from crying. so if you lose your faith, babe, you can have mine, and if you're lost i'm right behind, cause we walk the same line. and if these troubles should vanish like rain at midday, well i've no doubt there'll be more, and we can't run and we can't cheat, cause baby when we meet what we're afraid of, we find out what we're made of. so if you lose your faith, babe, you can have mine, and if you're lost i'm right behind, cause we walk the same line." ~we walk the same line by everything but the girl

Friday
Mar152002

connolly just called me. we're gonna go see ice age at crown where gene's the manager. olarn will meet us there. josh & lielle are m.i.a. the packing will have to wait until i'm in the packing mood. right now i gots to go meet connolly at the bookstore...

Friday
Mar152002

it's friday evening and i have gotten this much packing done: 0



went and saw the apartment again this afternoon...it grows on me every time. my very own little home!!! the girl who's moving out threw in for a total of $640 a 5000btu airconditioner, a huge utility shelf, a book shelf, coffee table, sleeper sofa in great condition, 2 sitting chairs, a nitestand, an oil painting, 2 blank canvases (because i'm SUCH an artist), 3 lamps, a dining set, an office table, closet organizer, toaster, blender, coffee maker, an old touring bike, 2 large antiquish mirrors, window trimmings, linens, plates, bowls, glasses, spices, kitchen utensils, garbage cans, cleaning supply, and a bunch of unopened edibles from whole foods. all i really need to bring is my laptop and clothes, and i'm all set! like how cool is THAT?!